I have been thinking about what I wanted to write in my blog to mark our first full year as a family and I have so much I want to say and at the same time so little to say. I am still in awe of the fact of how God answered our prayers!
My family is such an answer to prayers and such a gift that I don't take one day for granted with them. When I was thinking about the day we got to bring Payton home and the feeling that morning when I woke up; that I was going to bring home my baby after our time of waiting, I remember thanking God and being sooooo excited to see Payton and count her fingers and toes and get to know her!
Well when I woke up this morning, it was snowing and I rushed into the office to get done what I had to get done. Then a stop at the store before our snow storm and the whole time, I was thinking about how blessed I am to have a home full of love. I was just as excited to go home and hug Payton as the day we got to bring her home one year ago!
I wasn't quite as nervous and I didn't have to sign paper work or anything but today as we counted her toes, she loves to count things, I thought about the first day and how we got home and Todd and I both were like now what? And then God lead us as we needed to go. The now what quickly turned into "what's that?" and now this is our daily life.
Our daily life where we try to show Payton how to have a relationship with God and with others that is full of love and grace. Our daily life where we try to build one another up, support each other, and laughter together. Our daily life where dumping the crayons is just as exciting as picking them up for a one year old who loves to sort. Our daily life where I still stop and think from time to time, how did we get such an amazing gift?
I can't express my love for Payton enough! I can't tell you how much I love being a mother, I can't type enough words or share enough pictures to express how the little things melt my heart. I can't explain to you how long my heart ached to pray with my child at bedtime or to see Todd smile because his daughter says, "Hi dadda," I can't share how much my heart longed to have this child, Payton, in my life and to know that she is the one that was always my daughter. Payton is not just an answer to prayers but a miracle!
I am so thankful to Payton's birth family for choosing to give her to us out of pure love. We are so blessed to have a relationship with her birth family, we have about 3-4 scheduled visits a year with them. I was out shopping the other day with Payton and we were walking down the road to go get coffee and who do we see across the road? Payton's birth grandmother, so we got to have a cup of coffee with her grandparents, it was a nice surprise and I am so thankful that they are so open and we can be open with them and at the same time that they respect us and give us space to parent. We are so thankful to God for the relationship we have with her birth family.
I know that adoption is not for everyone but I am so thankful that after much prayer and research and a miracle from God that we had the privilege to adopt Payton because I know without a doubt in my mind that although she is "not flesh of my own flesh": she is my daughter and we are sooooo thankful to celebrate our first ever family day!!!
Here are some pictures from the first few weeks together to more recently! What a year! What an amazing story God is doing through our lives! We are so thankful to God for our little miracle and blessing!
|January 2, 2013: Payton in the car heading home with us!|
|January 2, 2013: My little baby that I had longed to hold was finally home!|
|Look at that face! <3|
She has grown so much in a year!
|Payton can now walk, run, communicate! She is the best!!|
|Daddy and Payton Christmas morning 2013|
|My heart is filled with Joy ALL the Time!!!|
|What happened to my little baby, she is growing so fast. I am so proud!|
|Can only imagine where God will lead her in the future! Trusting Him each step of the way!|